I’m not sure if it’s dysphoria about having breasts, or a desire to lose weight in general. And I don’t know if I should lose weight. On the one hand, I medically can’t because I’m hypoglycaemic and I’d pass out even more if I did, but on the other hand, people I know take it upon themselves to tell me I’m fat, and that makes me sad. And yeah, as a feminist I should say ‘fuck you guys, I’m doing what I want with my body’, but you can’t always act entirely on ideology, especially when it comes down to yourself.
Having low self esteem or poor body image doesn’t make you a bad feminist. It just means you have been effected by the beauty myth and societies silly standards. Almost every body is; it’s everywhere in our society.
I’m sorry that you feel the way you do; and I’m sorry societies bullshit is getting you down. Just know you aren’t alone, these feelings don’t make you a bad feminist and that you aren’t ugly: society is.
This is a community I love to follow, I suggest you check it out. Much love.